How sad.

I don't know what made me feel like this.
It's awful.
I don't know how to face myself or others,
because I am not who I should be.
I can't really understand the situation well, too.
I'm really tired after a long long day,
but there are just small things that torn me apart.
Probably I'm just weird even though
I don't think so,
even I admit a few times that I am.
Get what I'm saying so far?
I'm really emo now,
ppl, stop mistaking me from someone else,
it really pissed me off
cos your tone changed SO MUCH MORE.
I really doesn't like when people
pay the kind of serious/ can't-offend-you "respect".
Am I really a very tense person??
I just feel that I'm drifting people that I want to draw near to.
Like people that I want to treasure...
I guess it's fine with me already.

Everything fades, eventually.

My mind is filled.

With all the thoughts and my feelings.

One day,

I hope that I could accomplish something

that I wish to do or want to be.

I don't care about wealth nor fame,

I care about having a genuine heart, excellent EQ,

a heart that offers everything to God and for God.

I am really focusing on glorifying God,

however,

my mind sets me to a tilted direction,

no longer loving,

no longer glorifying.

Rather, it probably makes me to sin

with jealousy thoughts, venting my anger on anyone.

I care so much that I want so many of you to know.

I care so much that I disappoint myself of how far we've gone

but that's what I get in return.

Unreasonable love.

HECTIC.

Tired. Yes I am.

Recently I just felt that

all the datelines of everything are attacking me

all in a sudden.

What's wrong?

Is it my problems that i can't

handle or manage the stuffs?

I just need to take a breath.

Just a little.

But time is running,

i mean,

SPEEDING.

Terribly fast.

No time to even sit back and relax.

I need the GUIDE,

on how to run.

Run along with time.

I'll cut down on my munching time,

tv time,

computer time etc...

I'm upset.

As i see 3 of my beloved girlfriends

are crying with disappointment and pain.

Some show in the outside,

some, however, in the inside.

Especially my "husband",

she's upset recently, i guess.

I really love her,

we're like always connected in heart,

edifying each other.

Lord, that will be great if Your mercy brings

their sorrows before You.

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