Not everything

I just don't know,

if I'm right to choose who I want to be.

The world is realistic,

it's not fairy tale nor anything story with beautiful ending.

i don't know what I should do in order for me to wake up,

either I've been taking the people around for granted,

or they took me for granted.

I would really like someone to truly understand me,

even that person doesn't know,

that person will be the kind that I will speak up and tell.

Girlfriends are a bunch that can stick up with,

at least someone that can assure you their presence and support.

I guess many things are too hard,

too hard to get in the way that you want to,

and I really mean WANT.

I had some, yes right?

Prob all these will be as meaningless,

I didn't want someone that meaninglessly say that

"We're best friends and forever will be"

Sometimes, I just need a little concern,

but most of the time I just felt like a tool,

I will support you and comfort you,

but you never seems to gives me when I need it.

You have fun, you have friends,

you have your own life,

you have your excuses.

I let you in,

can you let me once?

Even there will be reason,

can't you sacrifice?

I really wish that you can be with me once.

Maybe I always look and behave strong,

but I need some sweet talks too.

I need comfort, be it small or big words.

I can choose to leave and turn away,

but even when I want to tell you what's going wrong,

you never listen.

It's tired that I'm always the one that took the first step,

because you never thought of,

Tired when you behave like nothing is going wrong,

it's not your mistake.

Sometimes, tears just flow like nobody's business.