Sometimes, it's just meaningless..

Sometimes I wonder why I have to bother about friendships if it
doesn't last, always disappoint and repeatedly tearing apart.
Should I just be numb about how I feel?
Tell me how.

I don't want to think so much already..
Tmr will be a really sucky day.
I don't want preparation for Royong Gotong!!!
I just want the day itself to happen, that's all.