Amazing time of sharing

Today's service was just too awesome to be mentioned.
I want to thank Ps. Fui and of cos, Father God for the
chance to share my testimony, something that's so deep down in my heart.
Embrace myself and tried not to cry,
but I poured out so badly that I just cried in front of everyone,
still, it has been a really amazing experience,
but most importantly,
I thank God that through my sharing,
many are touched.

Honestly, the reason why I've been so down,
so troubled and pulled down badly,
is because I'm really too concerned about what I can be,
on the worldly things and how people will see me.
Today, I didn't expected I would be so honest in front of everyone,
just sharing everything from my heart, deep down.

It is not the kind of "fame" that the adults might be talking about,
I mean, how is it even possible to get that kind of fame at this stage
of my life, isn't?
It is just the attitude that feeling worst about myself,
why am I not as good as other people,
why am I not being able to do as well as other people,
why am I not the "smarter" ones,
why?

When life is surrounded by this kind of self delusion,
I started to question my self worth in the school, in everywhere I am.

But, is it what life is all about?
Have I forgotten what God has prepared in advance for me?
Have I forgotten what is the real joy, the salvation that has set me apart?
No, I didn't.

I'm just so tested,
so scared,
so faithless despite knowing God is there.
Along the way there comes some obstacles that bring
me down, and up, and down again.
However, God is forever by my side,
FOREVER.
Amazingly, God showed me everything,
EVERYTHING.

How wonderful, more than words can say.
You are truly my Father who art in Heaven.