I just hate it when everything's just trying
to make you stuck!!!
I hate it when I'm always get very nervous by stupid
things that I really don't want to do.
I think sooner or later I'm gonna get some sort
of disorder because my conditions
fit perfectly into the category of melancholia.
It really sucks when you feel whatever you do
for other people is thrown into a rubbish bin.
Yes, I mind, I really mind!
What the heck,
I hate to be go back into an enviroment where
there will be so many witches around me
which I didn't know how to communicate with
and really really dislike.
I hope time will rewind back to the time when less worries will be.
I couldn't catch a breath,
honestly.
I hate the pace of life,
yes, exactly in this society.
Why rushing everything?
Why?
Is there a need to be a busy bee everyday?
When you have piles of work to work with
before you can get a good sweet sleep?
I guess probably it's not sweet at all because it just sucks.
Think alot when you're bathing,
sleeping,
eating and everything.
Okay, pls advice me to see whether I have
to visit a psychologist cos this world
is causing me so much illnesses.
Yes! I'm sick again.
And I couldn't get any understanding.
Well everyone,
just thought that I'm pretending
like a sick, weak and a stubborn fellow
like nobody's business!

I'm off to bed.

Soon my holiday will end and nightmare started.

Now since that very day,
I've been counting down to that day
and asking God if this is His will
for me to be where I am,
even when I'm so unhappy?
I thought that I like it but I don't.
Not at all.
This is a miserable feeling.

God, reveal your will to me asap!!!

Oh yes, I'm off to bed.

I'll tell myself tmr will be a NICE day.