You know,you will always feel that you're losing track of everything

in your life at some point of times.Like what i'm feeling now.

I'm such a freak.

I hate to say this to myself,

even once,i just don't like it.

But the sense that i'm freak push me to a limit to say that.

Anyway,who cares?

I'm always by myself,

even when someone who's trying to assist my success

was freaked out by me.

I fail to be the one others will look up on.

It's really upsets when i turn and look at

who i am now,a person with no faith in herself

and no confident to do anything.

I found myself even freak-er when i knew myself

was like this yet am encouraging others to have confident.

I don't even have them.

He told me i did a great job for the writing

and was amazed.

But who will care about this shitty piece of work?

It don't worth any praises.

I knew i'm seriously bad like this.

I need God and i'm losing track of 

the Faith He have taught me.

Buck up,rachel.

Just ignore me like what you always do.

Others,do the same.