He.Him

Was tender,

helpful,

funny,

wacky.

Was silent at times,

chatty at times.

Was joking at times,

serious at times.

Was independent,

all by himself.

Needs freedom,

his own land,

Going to explore himself,

i'm going to wave goodbye.

It is the right choice,

i guess.

Not by my permission,

i've no status.

It's all my fault to be silly at times.

Being silly is not all that i've been.

I can't interact with others too.

Sometimes i find it so hard to express my care to someone.

Even i've performed it out,

i don't think that others feel this love 

i had for them...

Is it my own problem?

I just find myself really silly,silly....

I'm always proud to say that i'm able 

to help someone out,however,the truth is that i'm being extra.

Probably my help is really not needed.

I always got the wrong timing to care.

Sometimes,i really admire those who can easily

win someone's heart.I guess,this is not for me.

I'm trying to be wishful,isn't?

I have so much to tell you.

I wish you won't go.

Sometimes,we can't have so many things.

We can't be greedy.

What really upset the mind is when we get nothing.

Really really thank God that i still got Him and a lovely family.

Praise the lord! :D

Dear Father God,

For all that i've not being sensible of,

here i am apologizing infront of you.

God,teach me of the ways to show my care and concern.

Let others to see my sincere.

Actually,it doesn't matter to me now.

It doesn't matter if others know,

as long as i've helped.

May you just bless and keep those whom i love,

all i need is to see them happy.

I used to say this like a hypocrite,

but now,i say this from my heart.

Amen.

I still need some time.

I still need your answer.